Now watching This Means War on HBO. :)
“As a teenager, I didn’t want to be me; I wanted to be many different people. Maybe I realized that they all lived inside me and that if I managed to connect with them, they would become aspects of me.” -Marion Cotillard
Maybe I wasn’t good enough
Maybe I wasn’t strong enough
Maybe I am shattered
and I’m just fooling myself
Maybe I became weak
Maybe I became selfish
Maybe I need to quit
or maybe I don’t
Maybe I told too many lies
Maybe people gave me too many pain
but those pain are worth it, right?
Maybe I am confuse
and yes, that is obvious
But maybe I’ll find the light again
Somehow, I am really hoping I’ll find my light
To be able to forgive
To be able to heal
To be able to let go of bad memories
To become selfless
And to be brave enough to take my mission
I need to “re-do” myself. I’ve been feeling awful and daze lately. Maybe because I got too many rejections for this week or maybe I need to stop beating myself up for the clumsy mistakes I made. I feel light headed for the most part.
I need to stop and sort and heal and learn to balance my world.
I hope I can clean up my act first thing tomorrow.